Oh crap. As I’ve tried to think of something to write about tonight, I ditched a few topics, thinking “well, no one would probably want to read that.” I even scrapped a post earlier when I was in a low mood and really just wanted to vent for the same reason (“Am I doing that too much?”). And then I realized that I have fallen into the strange space between “personal blog” and “for real blog.”
Does that make sense? The “personal blog” part probably does, but for the other–I’m referring to those official type blogs that have a specific topic in mind, a specific audience they’re writing to. There’s nothing wrong with that, of course, and I follow a few such blogs and enjoy them immensely. (And I’ve probably offended someone by implying that a personal blog isn’t a for real blog or vice versa, but for fuck’s sake, you know what I’m trying to say.)
That’s not me. I keep thinking that I need to balance the parenting stuff and the mental health stuff with the general stuff, maybe even clean up my language a bit, and I hate that. I don’t like the idea of writing for an audience, for views, all that. I don’t like constraints. That kinda defeats the whole purpose of “Blogging for Therapy.” I honestly don’t even like doing the networking thing to get more readers…that’s not what this is about. I so love the friendships I’ve made so far, and hope to make more, but I want that to happen organically.
So, less filter, more writing. You might be horrified by that, the notion that I’ve actually had some sort of filter in place all along.
As an official heads up to you guys (and myself), especially if you’re a newish reader–
This blog is for a bit of everything. From parenting and relationship stuff, to my personal mental health issues, to using this a diary to vent on the days I’m pissed and get shit off my chest when my mood is low or I’m just nervous about things (which I may remove later if I feel necessary), to just whatever the hell happens to be on my mind. And I do curse, so if you take exception to a lot of f bombs being dropped, well, you can’t say you weren’t warned.
So, that’s that.